Blog Status:

Lately I have been thinking of quitting blogging. I don’t think I need it anymore, and I don’t have a purpose for it. I used to love to blog because I wanted to “share” and I love to “write”. But now, I don’t seem to feel like sharing anything, or I don’t have the need to share. I still like to write, but I don’t do it as much any more. So it seems pretty useless to take up a space online and not use it (not that it’s affecting anything ) But anyways, I’m still considering.

Until I find a purpose for this blog,

Soloistah…

Trust Yourself:

Dear Soloistah,

What you feel is always true. Never, not once, where your feelings and instincts mistaken. Trust your heart, it knows better.

Soloistah…

“Yes Man” In Need:

No.

Apparently, that’s my answer, always. I’ve recently realized that when ever I’m face with anything, asked for anything, my answer is No, without even the slight consideration! And I never change back my answer, hard-headed I am, apparently.

When I sat down and thought about it, thought about as to what reason do I always behave this way. The reasons were few, but the most believable one was “Because I have good perception. My predictions are always true, thus I form an idea of what things will be if I said Yes, and I don’t like it.”

To make it clearer, I’ll put it in a simple example; I was asked to go to a family gathering, let’s say. My answer? No. Why did I say No? Because I know once I go to the gathering, I won’t find anyone close to my age there, I will be bored, so why put myself through that?! <--- That’s my perception, and normally it’s true.

Even though, this is not how I want to be, because no matter how good my predictions are, sometimes I might be wrong. Especially in the case of new things. I need to change that. How? I don’t know. I blindly believe in my power of prediction and it’s hard to think “maybe this time it might not be the way I picture it would be.”

But I’ll work on that. (Or completely forget about the whole thing )

Soloistah…

Picture(s) and Some Words #20:

Soloistah sucks at drawing, actually, she can not draw.

This is an Aspergillus, supposedly this:

While this is a Rhizopus:

Supposedly this:

To whoever is wondering, those were two species of Fungi, and no they are not the same thing; Aspergillus and Rhizopus.

Soloistah…

2010; I’m Not Impressed:

It’s almost the end of 2010, and now I can honestly say, it was forgettable. I think that’s the right word. Nothing remarkable happened. but then again, I saw that coming, here’s my proof “Day 1, 2010”.

Now, the fact that what I foresaw happened, scares me. I still haven’t thought about 2011 and what might and what would and what won’t. But the fact that what I might think would happen is a bit scary. Maybe because what I thought about 2010 somehow got printed into my memory and made it happen, like law of attraction and the likes. But then again, I don’t believe in all of that.

Anyways, in 2011 I will make a difference. And that’s my resolution.

Soloistah… 

Picture credit: Kumailplus’s blog.

meh. Days:

You know when you feel bad/down but you don’t know why?

Today I had a nice day, long but nice day. I have done good things, I laughed and smiled. Drank coffee and Shani. I have no reason to feel bad, or down, whatsoever, yet I’m just sad.

Here’s the thing about me; I always feel bad after a good time. I have no idea why I do. It’s been puzzling me for such a long time.

it’s one of those meh. ending days.

Soloistah…

 

I’m Not Writing Much:

I think I have lost my ability to express myself. Is that even possible? Before I used to only know how to express with written words, but now even written words can’t help me. I know for a fact that writing is practice, and I sure hell ain’t practicing it much lately, but still. I should be able to express myself. But I’m not able to. Can’t translate what’s on my mind.

Soloistah…